Shoes

I’ve worn the shoes of those who question why people treat them the way they do.
I have worn the shoes of those who question why people judge them because of what they’ve heard.
I’ve also worn the shoes that made me think nothing would ever get better and life just wasn’t worth it.
I’ve worn the shoes of feeling like I was never enough and lived in complete loneliness even with many around me.
I’ve worn the shoes of abuse, neglect, poverty, sadness, hate, and sin.
You know, they were not the nicest of shoes I will tell you that. Sometimes they became so familiar they even became comfortable.
My spirit and heart ached for more though. I knew I was meant to live in happiness. I just had to figure out how to get there. But Where do I start? How do I really get there?

Well, I’m going to let you in on a little secret here. Its within you. I found the happiness I needed to reach for more. I found FORGIVENESS! I learned to forgive ME, not others. I learned to forgive myself for loving people who treated me bad. I can’t hate them for being who they are. I don’t have to like what they did or even love them….But I can forgive myself. I loved and there’s nothing wrong with that. I’ve made mistakes too as humans normally do to learn. As for things getting better, it’s perspective. I’m not rich by any financial means but I am richer in life for the love I give and receive. I am richer in life because I see hearts, souls, I see life. I’m a better me because I keep trying and I dare to see all the beauty in everything, even the fucking bullshit!

I know when you’re wearing these said shoes it’s hard to see all the positive. Damn is it hard! Once you relax and take in an innocent, beautiful moment, something will click. Then you’ll realize just how beautiful this crazy disastrous life really is. You’ll realize just how small you really are yet how major your impact is. Make your mark shine light into this world even if it’s small. You are a beautiful light!
And by the way, quit wearing those damn shoes. Go barefoot!
-Dani